I’m so tired of my emotions lately.  I really wish I could just shut off my mind so I wouldn’t think so much. Does anyone else feel that way? I’m so frustrated. I want to be noticed for who I am and not to be used by someone. My whole life I’ve been used by other people. I care too much so now I’m stuck with this overwhelming feeling of anxious knots  in my stomach. I hate this feeling and I just want it to go away.

I fell into your life

Now you’re falling head first into mine

And I’m unsure if I want that

You’re falling head first

I’m clinging onto my old life

Without you



The amber lights made me feel calm

I never felt so indifferent

I never felt so exhausted

Cold rooms and cold stares

Cold hearts and cold lives


Please don’t touch me

I think if you do I’ll break

I want to break these walls

That looked just like a prison

Not a home –

For people with confused minds and lives


I don’t know how I feel about this – I haven’t written anything I really liked in a while. Thought I’d post though so I can try to stay consistent with my blog posts.  Thanks for reading!

And if I’ve learned from my mistakes

I’d swallow my words

Cut them into little pieces

No more written notes, poems, or excessive thoughts

And If I’ve learned from my mistakes

My chest won’t tighten

And I won’t have to fight

These fucking mistakes