The Acceptance Project (Part 1)

Trigger warning: Self-harm talk.

I was a cutter since middle school. This project is helping me get through my recent mental health issues. I’m Bipolar  and these past few weeks were pretty good so i’m getting better.

I will always miss cutting myself. That’s just how it’s going to be. I  don’t miss hiding my body, spewing lies about it just being a “Cat scratch” and hurrying to clean up before someone needs the bathroom.

I relapsed once but I’m getting through all of this day by day.

I sure hope you enjoy my photos. Mental illness is real and the fucking stigma around it needs to die. I’m tired of people being so judgemental.  Stop being fuck wads! Anyway, here’s some of the photos.


 Raw. My makeup is what keeps me happy and comfortable. I’m without makeup in these photos.

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Have you ever felt imaginary hands around your neck? The empty stomach that somehow is filled with pure adrenaline or anxiety. I will always hate that feeling.

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Stay away, there’s not anything you can do. You can’t love or wish a mental illness away.

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She would Rather be Beaten to Death than take any Shit (Halloween 2016)

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I’m a little late but here are my photos from Halloween. I had so much fun with a simple SFX look this year! I went to my grandma’s to give out candy for her. A few kids were scared of me and it made me feel bad. Hey, kids scare me too! Haha

This look was supposed to be a Post-Apocalyptic Warrior(ess) look but I don’t know if that’s clear or not. I took inspiration from Lisbeth Salander (Rooney Mara’s Lisbeth) with “bleached” brows. I only put a little bit of white foundation in the front of my brows.

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Products:

Face

Too Faced Born this Way Foundation (Snow)

NYX Blush in Taupe

Physician’s Formula Butter Bronzer in Light

Eyes/Eyebrows

E.L.F Instant Lift Brow Pencil – Taupe

NYX Pro Foundation Mixer – White (front of brows)

Rimmel Exaggerate Eyeliner in Blackest Black

Wet N Wild Eye shadow – Panther

Mascara (Can’t remember what I used)

Lips

Impulse Cosmetics – Apocalyptic


SFX

Cinema Secrets Liquid Latex

Bruise Stack

Vampire Blood

Pink and brown eye shadow

Thank you for reading! Would you like more SFX posts all year round? I hope you had a great Halloween! Stay spooky. ;)

As the Water Flows (Part 1)

I’ve been consumed with anxiety lately. I might post some personal posts about that another time.

Today my father and I went and did some errands and I got to stop by Seneca Lake here in Ohio. It really made me feel so much better! The autumn leaves blowing and the peaceful waters.

Thank you for reading! Also, I have made it to 100+ followers and I’m so very thankful for all of you. I didn’t think anyone would bother reading this blog. I love and appreciate you all.

xoxo

Emily

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