Here are a few photos that I didn’t like at first, but then discovered I like how they turned out. I was experimenting with light I guess. These are a year old at least. I like how dark the second picture is. I guess you could say it’s a shitty photo but I like how it turned out.
The other day I went with my film camera (Minolta Maxxum 7000) to the lake and I was just planning on taking photos. That quickly changed as I started to walk around in my barefeet across the sand. It was such a nice place to take photos! I later went back with my swimsuit to swim. I’ll share a few of my favorite photos.
I’m still learning how to take good pictures with my film or my digital camera. I brought my film camera instead of my digitial because I wanted to experiment with the film camera some more. Photography is so fun and entertaining to me. I’m hoping in October my best friend models for me! Anyway here’s the photos:
I’ve been stuck in an anxious state for a while now but I decided to take some pictures to try to help me feel better. This pond is behind my house and I never thought to take photos of it until yesterday.
Lately, I’ve been inspired by my dad’s old film camera, which is a Minolta Maxxum 7000 50 mm film camera. I’ve been dropping off film at Walmart weekly (monthly now, I’ve been slacking) it seems because of how many I’ve gone through, and I wait excitedly to get the photos back. It doesn’t matter to me if they don’t come out the way I want them to, as long as I’m experimenting and learning as I go. I love the aesthetic of film photography! Here are a few of my favorite photos:
I’ll be making a gallery on my blog soon so check for that for more film photography!
My thoughts are still jumbled but I’m accepting the fact that I’m Bipolar. At least now I know why I act the way I do. I’m not good with this but here’s some more of my self-portraits. I want to spread the good instead of the bad parts of having a mental illness. My whole life I just thought I had anxiety/depression. Now I understand better. Now I know.
I was a cutter since middle school. This project is helping me get through my recent mental health issues. I’m Bipolar and these past few weeks were pretty good so i’m getting better.
I will always miss cutting myself. That’s just how it’s going to be. I don’t miss hiding my body, spewing lies about it just being a “Cat scratch” and hurrying to clean up before someone needs the bathroom.
I relapsed once but I’m getting through all of this day by day.
I sure hope you enjoy my photos. Mental illness is real and the fucking stigma around it needs to die. I’m tired of people being so judgemental. Stop being fuck wads! Anyway, here’s some of the photos.
Raw. My makeup is what keeps me happy and comfortable. I’m without makeup in these photos.
Have you ever felt imaginary hands around your neck? The empty stomach that somehow is filled with pure adrenaline or anxiety. I will always hate that feeling.
Stay away, there’s not anything you can do. You can’t love or wish a mental illness away.