Update + About me Tag

Hello everyone,

Sorry that I haven’t posted in a while. I just haven’t been inspired much and I’ve been busy with college. I’m now currently on Spring break from college so I’m hoping to post a few of these tags occasionally. If you have a Tumblr, feel free to follow me at http://cr0ssyourheart.tumblr.com/  I’m much more active there!

I occasionally get tagged in things on tumblr so I thought I’d share a tagged post so that you can get to know me me more! I think these are fun to do and maybe you should do them too! I’d love to read them! :)


Can you fill this out without lying? 

1. What was the last thing you put in your mouth? Chinese food

2. Where was your blog picture taken?  Dining room

3. Worst pain you’ve ever experienced? Dating a sociopath for 2 years (long story lol)

4. How many times have you been married? None

5. How late did you stay up last night? 2am

6. If you could move somewhere else, where would it be? Probably to Pennsylvannia because that’s where my favorite person lives @mykeowns :D

7. Do any of your tumblr friends live close to you? Only about 3?

8. When was the last time you cried? Probably a month ago

9. Who took your profile picture? Me

10. (does anyone know what happened to ten?)

11. How many marriage proposals have you had? none

12. If you could have any career, what would it be? Counselor/School counselor

13. What was the last book you read? The fourth? book of the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon

14. If you could talk to ANYONE right now, who would it be? My best friend Cierra. I miss her TONS

15. Are you a good influence? Decent enough lol

16. Does pineapple belong on a pizza? sure, do what you like

17. You have the remote, what channel will you watch? Adult swim

18. Whom do you think will play along? idk :)

19. Have you graduated from university? No

20. Your favourite football team? None, don’t watch it

 

I tag whoever reads this to do it!

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Remain Your Funny Valentine

Here are a few photos that I didn’t like at first, but then discovered I like how they turned out.  I was experimenting with light I guess. These are a year old at least.  I like how dark the second picture is. I guess you could say it’s a shitty photo but I like how it turned out.


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xoxo

Emily

Happy Halloween: Reds & Bloody Tears

Happy Halloween everyone!

Today I decided on doing a blown out red smokey eye for Halloween. I enjoy doing red eye shadow looks but this is to an extreme!

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Products used:


Maybelline Fit Me Foundation – 102 Fair Ivory

Light Pink eyeshadow

Sugarpill Love+ eyeshadow

Tartiest Pro Palette – Mod

Wet N Wild Purple eyeshadow

Wet N Wild Panther Eyeshadow (Black)

Impulse Cosmetics lipstick – Apocalyptic

NYX Born to Glow Illuminator –  Beam (On face and on center of eyelids)

Vampire Blood


I hope everyone had a fun and safe Halloween! What did you go as this Halloween? I’d love to know!

xoxo

Emily Darling

Seneca Lake – Beautiful Waters

The other day I went with my film camera (Minolta Maxxum 7000) to the lake and I was just planning on taking photos. That quickly changed as I started to walk around in my barefeet across the sand.  It was such a nice place to take photos! I later went back with my swimsuit to swim.   I’ll share a few of my favorite photos.

I’m still learning how to take good pictures with my film or my digital camera. I brought my film camera instead of my digitial because I wanted to experiment with the film camera some more. Photography is so fun and entertaining to me. I’m hoping in October my best friend models for me! Anyway here’s the photos:

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Thank you for reading!

 

Hope without Bandages

(Trigger Warning)

I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar affective disorder.

This was written when I relapsed some time ago. I thought I’d share.

I’m proud to say I’m officially done with this part of my life. I will never need to break disposable razors for the blades. I don’t miss having to hide my body and I don’t miss the scars and I don’t miss the way it calmed me.  I really want everyone to know that cutting is something that will become an addiction once you start. At least that was my experience and I don’t wish it upon anyone.  I remember sitting on the bathroom floor the day I cut myself too deep and it really had me questioning what the fuck I was doing. Why harm yourself when everyone else tries to harm you too? This world is full of people who want to hurt you and why hurt yourself even more? I don’t miss cutting myself. I remember when I did though. Self – harm is still an issue and it starts at a young age. People don’t stop cutting until they scare themselves by cutting too deep. Well, I can’t say that for a fact but that’s the way it happened for me.

“Each cut, each scar, each burn, a different mood or time. I told him what the first one was, told him where the second one came from. I remembered them all. And for the first time in my life I felt beautiful. Finally part of the earth. I touched the soil and he loved me back.” – Secretary


Self- hatred is so comfortable to me and it has never gone away.

I’ve found hope in bood and razor blades

I’ve found beauty in cuts and bandages

Bleeding has been the easiest part of life

Bruises on my heart can show for it

Experimenting with Film Photography

Lately, I’ve been inspired by my dad’s old film camera, which is a Minolta Maxxum 7000 50 mm  film camera.  I’ve been dropping off film at Walmart weekly (monthly now, I’ve been slacking)  it seems because of how many I’ve gone through, and I wait excitedly to get the photos back.  It doesn’t matter to me if they don’t come out the way I want them to, as long as I’m experimenting and learning as I go. I love the aesthetic of film photography! Here are a few of my favorite photos:

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I love this one for the shadow of my cat, Bushko.

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I’ll  be making a gallery on my blog soon so check for that for more film photography!